Took Mom to physical therapy today, as she's been recovering from hip replacement surgery. She has had a long and tough road to healing, but I'm so proud of her and her effort to be well. My nieces were as beautiful as always. I bought the movie "I Can Do Bad All By Myself" and cried like an actress doing a Kleenex commercial. The movie moves me, inspires me, and makes me want to go back to church. Truth is I love church. I really do! I love community, gospel music, singing and clapping, praying and feeling good! I just sometimes disagree with a lot of things that it teaches sometimes, and feel torn between feeling like a hyprocritical sinner and being brave enough to think that it is possible to love ALL people even if they believe diffrently than me.
I hate to admit it, but Mr. Mak keeps haunting my brain. It sucks and I want to be all tough about it, and say, well, he let me down, but he's there. There's a connection there...and it's beyond a physical attraction. Can't explain it too well. We've had such great conversations, and I think he has the perfect combination of intelligence and humility; manliness and empathy; dangerous and safe, lol...or maybe I'm just out of my mind!!! Because here's the kicker...are you ready? Take a breath and hold your reaction...here goes.
I've NEVER met him in person. The story is long, and one day, maybe I will let you know the whole story. Long story short we began as pen pals, graduated to texting, calling...but everytime we have a date planned something goes wrong either on his side or mine. Just when I tried to get him out of my mind...
Mr. Mak sent me a text...he had good news, and I was excited for him and congratulated him. I had put my phone down while watching the movie and suddenly realized he'd been trying to contact me...damn!!
Did I mention??
LOL..I can do this...but something's gotta give. I need a date!! Or a piece of candy! Or date with candy in his hand...Sweet dreams!