Showing posts with label Aquinas High school. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Aquinas High school. Show all posts
Sunday, February 6, 2011
"WHAT SO PROUDLY WE HAIL..." CHRISTINA'S NATIONAL ANTHEM
Tonight, was Super Bowl XLV! Yea, yea, I confess, I really don't care much for football...I care about it as much as it cares about me. But I deinitely watched one of the singers I admire, Christina Aguilera, sing the National Anthem. So many things come to mind whenever the National Anthem is even mentioned. Firstly, it is a brilliantly written song! And if you pay close attention to it, it gives an intense visual of the sights of war: "...and the rockets' red glare, the bombs bursting in air..." And if you really listen to how the melody rises perfectly with the right words, it should ALWAYS deliver chills to the listener. Our National Anthem, to me, is one of the greatest ones written; although I'm sure every person feels that way about their own national anthem - no matter what country they are from.
Another thing that comes to mind is how difficult it can be to memorize the American National Anthem. Have YOU ever personally tried to memorize it? Not the easiest song. One of the reasons most songs written actually rhyme is to make it easier for the listener to remember the words. Not true with the National Anthem. When I was attending Aquinas High School in the Bronx (Class of '85), my choir director and mentor, Mr. Roman, literally went insane when someone, anyone forgot the lyrics to the anthem. I mean his face would turn red, his blue eyes went black (at least that's what it looked like from my standpoint) and his voice went to such volume that one could hear him from the principal's office...and his classroom was in the basement! I remember him saying, "Dammit!!! You are an American...EVERY American should know the national anthem! What kind of American are you??? Jesus!!" Then with his veins popping through the side of his temple, he would sit down in defeat and throw anything within his reach onto the floor. And then...
Silence.
I never forgot that for some reason. His words rang in my head for years. And thank God it did. Four years after graduating, 1989, there I was performing in Flushing Meadow Park, Queens for World's Fair. The Gipsy Kings were headlining, and I had the fortunate blessing of being introduced to them. I didn't understand one word they said...I can tell you it wasn't Spanish. It was a mix of Spanish, and a whole bunch of other stuff. Oh, sorry...back to the story. All of a sudden, Al Bandiero, one of the dj's for HOT 103, came screaming out, "Does anyone know the National Anthem? The person who was supposed to do it never showed up and the show can't start until the National Anthem is done." I was a little hesitant but I raised my hand. There I was onstage, alone...no music, no lyric sheet and Mr. Roman's face bursting in my head. "Oh, say can you see..."
Fast forward to 1993 or so. I found out that the NJ Nets were holding auditions for National Anthem singers. I wanted to be one of them so bad. I had already been singing professional for years, and Iknew all the words. I auditioned and it was harder than expected. As you sing, you hear the line you already sang come right back at you while you're still singing. It gets very confusing...and you basically hear your own echoes delayed for a second or two. It is not just confusing' it's annoying! I was finished. I felt pretty good about the whole thing. Then I got the letter: "Dear Ms. Torres, we regret to inform you that you have not been chosen for this season..." WHAT?!! Do they know who I am?? LOL...Yes, for a second I was full of myself. Sad, but true.
This is what was written about Christina Aguilera's performance tonight of the National Anthem at the opening of the Super Bowl (link:http://sports.yahoo.com/nfl/blog/shutdown_corner/post/Video-Christina-Aguilera-goofs-up-the-National-?urn=nfl-317568): " Perhaps she was too concerned with breaking Patti LaBelle's record for turning single-syllable words into entire paragraphs during the singing of "The Star-Spangled Banner," but noted ex-teen queen Christina Aguilera botched the national anthem something fierce before the Super Bowl. Aguilera started out all right, but she had a problem with the ramparts -- specifically, the "O'er the ramparts we watched" line, which she left out altogether.Aguilera tried to make up for it by combining two lines -- "What so proudly we watched," instead of "What so proudly we hailed", but let's just say that it was too late to reverse the error. Twitter blew up, and all Aguilera could do was to oversing every word from there on out, which she most certainly did."
My point?
Leave Christina alone!!! Oh, my goodness, have YOU ever tried singing it in front of over 100,000 people....acapella...I'm sorry but I have here what I call "singer's compassion." As a fellow singer, let me just tell you...it is a FREAKING TERRIFYING experience to sing at a stadium. It's not the same as when you sing for a concert. Yu sing your own music, with your own tracks or band in the background and everyone in the audience PAID to see you because they are ALL fans!! Not so in this situation...All eyes are on you. She's singing acapella which means she has to stay on key no matter what she does. Not too many people are very good at doing that. Take another look at American Idol auditions and you will see that some pretty good singers lose out on their chance because they're "all over the place" with the key of the song. Then she's got to worry about all that echo coming back, which can throw off almost anyone. Who knows what was happening in her head. Yes, she's a pro. Yes, she's a seasoned performer. Yes, she's great and level of expectation from us is far greater!! But that's my point, we ALWAYS expect greatness from her...and God forbid she doesn't deliver EVERY...SINGLE...TIME! And sure, one could argue that it might be nice to hear her sing the melody without all the runs and rifts and screams, etc...but that's her style and you know it. Why would she sing any differently. Actually I was impressed that she did all those runs and didn't forget what key she was in to begin with. LOL.
I don't know. Maybe I'm just a nice person. Perhaps it's that I realize that there has been a rare occasion when I forgot the words...to my OWN songs...or times when I cracked in the middle of a high note. I say, "Good job Christina!!! You were great~! And when you messed up the words, like a REAL PRO, you kept going...you didn't make it obvious that you flubbed. In fact, I'd bet anything that if there weren't a whole bunch of articles and tweets about it, 1/2 the audience wouldn't have even noticed it. By the way, Ms. Aguilera, you were FANTASTIC in Burlesque!" ...Applause, applause!!
Thursday, July 8, 2010
AND EVERY TONGUE WHICH RISES AGAINST YOU...
The last couple of weeks, I've been a bit silent...if you've ever seen any of my shows, you'll know I cannot shut up. But I've been quiet because recently I've encountered some strange obstacles. There are a lot of things in this world that can hurt you, and throughout my career, I've always cried when hurt, but have always had the thick skin of perseverence, resilience and plain old determination. But there is one thing that seems to penetrate that skin. Hold on...I'm looking for the word. Betrayal? Persecution? Not sure.
When I was in high school, (Aquinas High School, Bronx, NY) I was popular, but not socially popular; I was an honor student. I excelled in Latin, pretty good with other classes, I had solos in the glee club and leads in the musicals...I worked hard. Life at home was so stressful sometimes that I liked school. It was a temporary escape, and I always told myelf that if I worked hard, I could be successful and get my mom out of the situation we were in. That was my drive - I wanted to be a singer, and I wanted to have a brain to fall back on, just in case. I was asked to sing a solo for Ring Day for my class of '85 &. It was Ring Day rehearsal after school and the entire 181 classs of 1985 was there. One of the teachers announced that before we were dismissed, there was a surprise.
"Judy, come on up. Judy Torres is going to sing a song for us."
I heard so much sucking of the teeth. I heard hissing. I heard people saying "Oh, my God...again?!"
I walked up to the podium and I was so devastated that I had practiced so much and they really didn't want to hear me, that I ran off crying. The teacher was horrified and scolded the seniors. She forced me to come back and sing, and then made everyone stay after longer as punishment. That punishment resulted in further punishment for me by a few classmates who bullied me in the last month of school. I felt so confused. Why would people do this to me? I'm nice to EVERYBODY! I'm just working hard, studying hard, rehearsing hard. I know now that it was jealousy then...it still hurt nonetheless. I confess that I am a sensitive soul and I wear my heart on my sleeve. I was just so confused. But that same confusion, that sense of injustice has recently reintroduced itself into my adult life.
For a very long time in this career, I can say that mostly everyone who's entered my life has been good to me. I have proudly been able to resolve conflicts and I've also taken pride in knowing that my reputation is solid. Until recently.
It appears that something or someone is trying to taint that reputation I work fiercely to protect and nurture to be a good one. I do my best to be kind to everyone whose path I cross, and I do my best to be honest. I try not to engage in gossip. But suddenly, I have been questioned and without reason someone(s) is attempting to taint my reputation . Suddenly, it seems a lot of things I have said have been taken out of context and I really feel, quite frankly, that I'm under attack. I am in shock. I am hurt. Who would do this to me? WHY would anyone do this to me? Out of the blue, I feel like I'm back in high school again. My manager tells me time and time again, "No one is your friend, Judy - trust NO ONE!" I don't want to live my life like that. I don't want to be paranoid, but I was suddenly questioning everything, everyone. For a while, I was hurt and I did a LOT of crying. I also had to do a lot of defending myself...nothing worse than trying to prove to someone your innocence when they've already decided you are guilty. I cried. I lost sleep. And I was pushed into silence. But then something quite different happened that did not happen in high school:
I GOT MAD!
I have decided to channel that angry energy into bringing my career to the next level. I have decided that the truth always gets revealed; that the truth will indeed set me free. I do not believe in using that kind of energy to "get even"...it is disempowering. I also realize that who ever is trying to hurt me, it's not about me. It's about them. "They" are not feeling good about themself, so they have to do something to bring me down so that they can feel elevated. But that elevation is temporary, for I will rise up...just like the Phoenix. LOL...LOL...sorry got carried away.
Today, I break that silence, determined to not let my enemies, (apparently I have one or two) get me down. Today, I release that anger, determined to forgive all of it, hoping that it will make me a stronger person.
Today, I won't feel like the Judy in high school. I won't run away crying. I'm here to stay. LOL.
One of my favorite scriptures from the Bible that gets me through stuff like this is:
Isaiah 54: 17 - "No weapon formed against me shall prosper. And every tongue which rises against me in judgment, you shall condemn..." I stand by that.
Please by all means, if you have a story in which you can relate, please share it here!
When I was in high school, (Aquinas High School, Bronx, NY) I was popular, but not socially popular; I was an honor student. I excelled in Latin, pretty good with other classes, I had solos in the glee club and leads in the musicals...I worked hard. Life at home was so stressful sometimes that I liked school. It was a temporary escape, and I always told myelf that if I worked hard, I could be successful and get my mom out of the situation we were in. That was my drive - I wanted to be a singer, and I wanted to have a brain to fall back on, just in case. I was asked to sing a solo for Ring Day for my class of '85 &. It was Ring Day rehearsal after school and the entire 181 classs of 1985 was there. One of the teachers announced that before we were dismissed, there was a surprise.
"Judy, come on up. Judy Torres is going to sing a song for us."
I heard so much sucking of the teeth. I heard hissing. I heard people saying "Oh, my God...again?!"
I walked up to the podium and I was so devastated that I had practiced so much and they really didn't want to hear me, that I ran off crying. The teacher was horrified and scolded the seniors. She forced me to come back and sing, and then made everyone stay after longer as punishment. That punishment resulted in further punishment for me by a few classmates who bullied me in the last month of school. I felt so confused. Why would people do this to me? I'm nice to EVERYBODY! I'm just working hard, studying hard, rehearsing hard. I know now that it was jealousy then...it still hurt nonetheless. I confess that I am a sensitive soul and I wear my heart on my sleeve. I was just so confused. But that same confusion, that sense of injustice has recently reintroduced itself into my adult life.
For a very long time in this career, I can say that mostly everyone who's entered my life has been good to me. I have proudly been able to resolve conflicts and I've also taken pride in knowing that my reputation is solid. Until recently.
It appears that something or someone is trying to taint that reputation I work fiercely to protect and nurture to be a good one. I do my best to be kind to everyone whose path I cross, and I do my best to be honest. I try not to engage in gossip. But suddenly, I have been questioned and without reason someone(s) is attempting to taint my reputation . Suddenly, it seems a lot of things I have said have been taken out of context and I really feel, quite frankly, that I'm under attack. I am in shock. I am hurt. Who would do this to me? WHY would anyone do this to me? Out of the blue, I feel like I'm back in high school again. My manager tells me time and time again, "No one is your friend, Judy - trust NO ONE!" I don't want to live my life like that. I don't want to be paranoid, but I was suddenly questioning everything, everyone. For a while, I was hurt and I did a LOT of crying. I also had to do a lot of defending myself...nothing worse than trying to prove to someone your innocence when they've already decided you are guilty. I cried. I lost sleep. And I was pushed into silence. But then something quite different happened that did not happen in high school:
I GOT MAD!
I have decided to channel that angry energy into bringing my career to the next level. I have decided that the truth always gets revealed; that the truth will indeed set me free. I do not believe in using that kind of energy to "get even"...it is disempowering. I also realize that who ever is trying to hurt me, it's not about me. It's about them. "They" are not feeling good about themself, so they have to do something to bring me down so that they can feel elevated. But that elevation is temporary, for I will rise up...just like the Phoenix. LOL...LOL...sorry got carried away.
Today, I break that silence, determined to not let my enemies, (apparently I have one or two) get me down. Today, I release that anger, determined to forgive all of it, hoping that it will make me a stronger person.
Today, I won't feel like the Judy in high school. I won't run away crying. I'm here to stay. LOL.
One of my favorite scriptures from the Bible that gets me through stuff like this is:
Isaiah 54: 17 - "No weapon formed against me shall prosper. And every tongue which rises against me in judgment, you shall condemn..." I stand by that.
Please by all means, if you have a story in which you can relate, please share it here!
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